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Friday 12 October 2012

Sometimes I Wish .... .... ....




Nikky told me that she'd to write ... a blog to join a blog-chain ("Right")
I asked her "What's it all about?" and when she told, I had no doubt
That I would like to join in, too ... near broke my neck (well, wouldn't you?)
to write off for to ask to join ... with story from my life, purloined.
This is the last post in the chain ... one person tagged ... who tags again ...
the links have stretched to thirty one ... now I'm the last, the chain is done ...
Around the globe our tag-chain's stretched ... so many pictures have been etched
with words and feelings quite profound ... I've read them all, sometimes spellbound.
Kimly B, with gentle kindness ... leads you onwards; smiling, painless ...
As she hands you into my care ... should I give a Halloween scare?
No ... here's my own brief offering ... I hope, to you, some smiles 'twill bring:
I often think of my lost son ... does he forgive his unknown mum?



Sometimes I wish, alas, alack -
that, to my youth I could go back
(Sweet days when sunshine and brief showers did abound)
When miniskirts were all the rage -
while the Beatles sang on stage ...
And my hair, lacquered in 'beehive', should astound.



I could return to Liverpool -
catch that young, deluded fool ...
Say "The time has come to mind your p's and q's
Do NOT walk along that lane -
nor take shelter from the rain
For you'll end up raped and pregnant ... your youth, you'll lose".

"THEN, don't run away from home -
to that sad and friendless zone
Where you'll be beaten and maltreated all the time
You'll be kicked and hit and hurt -
have your face ground in the dirt
And your earnings will be used to buy his wine.

When you do escape at last -
all your troubles won't have passed,
That pregnancy's put sev'n months' growth upon your girth
So you'll end up in a 'home' -
an 'unmarried mother' zone
Where they'll take your baby from you at his birth".

But then common-sense sets in -
as I realise, with a grin,
I wouldn't want to change my life and all its tears ...
You see, because of those 'mistakes' -
I've stayed upon this path I take
And I've had much fun and pleasure down the years !




I've had other children to -
give me kisses, cuddles too ...
Married, divorced, remarried and then widowed, twice;
Mine was not a lonely path,
AND it was paved with love and laugh ...
Now I'm so glad I could not take my own advice !!!!!!

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So here we've come full circle round and your reading job's complete ...
Link back to Dangerous Linda, and her temper tantrum, so sweet :D

33 comments:

  1. Wonderful! You can't go back and start over, even though the youth of the past is tempting... because if you did, you would be the you that you are today.. or you might have missed out on all those memories. Nice to have connected on the blog hop.

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    1. Hello, Brenda ...
      I have been so very lucky in that I have learned to rise above the miseries which clouded many years of my life. Having discovered a positive mindset (the hard way, LOL)I can now look back and see just how much of my life was wonderful.
      Thank you for your constructive response.
      Pat.

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  2. Pat: I love love love how you write and the way you share! Thank you for an amazing last post in our blog hop! You made me think about different points in my life. I turned the magic 50 last December and it is a weird feeling. I now have two grandsons, and I think back to when my children were young like it was yesterday. I remember some very happy times, and I am as adventurous now as I was then, but my body will no cooperate. How funny and sweet. I look forward to reading more of you! Blessings to you my friend across the ocean!!

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    1. Hi, Kimly ...
      I consider myself fortunate to have been allowed to join the blog hop at such short notice and I enjoyed writing the post even though my original idea had been a tale about fusing my false teeth together with chewing gum and consequently losing so much weight that I slipped between the bars of a storm drain and was lost to the underworld, LOL. (No joke ... my imagination can run away with me at times) However, what you got was a potted life history instead.
      Thank you for your enthusiastic response.
      Pat.

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  3. Loved reading this wish of yours !!

    Specially these words:

    I've had other children to -
    give me kisses, cuddles too ...
    Married, divorced, remarried and then widowed, twice;
    Mine was not a lonely path,
    AND it was paved with love and laugh ...
    Now I'm so glad I could not take my own advice !!!!!!

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    1. Hello, 'Me' ...
      Sorry, being new, I have not learned everyone's names yet.
      I appreciate your visiting to read this post of mine and taking the time to comment.
      Best wishes, Pat.

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  4. Oh I loved this, partly because after reading all these; I see how I but one of many, instead on one alone. Partly because I love the wayyou write and share. Wonderful addition to our tag game. Thank you! <3

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    1. Good morning, Jan ...
      Your cheerful response to my post is most welcome. I can feel your chuckles, thank you.
      No, we are not alone as we sit, lost in introspection, wishing we could go back in time to change those actions of our past which we perceive as needing alteration. However, as I came to realise several years ago: the past is the foundation upon which we build our todays ... and, as I examine my todays and the wonderfully rich treasure chest of memories and experiences which I clutch tightly within my heart, I come to the conclusion that I wouldn't want to change a single moment of it all.
      Thank you. Pat.

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  5. Dear Patricia,

    Lovely and True. I'm so glad you can see the beauty in all that is! Thank you for sharing this message of Love & Hope!

    XOXOXOXO

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    2. Hello, Linda ... your own highly memorable post is still making me smile (and not just because of the attention-grabbing toddler, either LOL)
      I appreciate your reading my post and taking the time to comment. Being able to look back on my life with equanimity has enabled me to discover the delights of a positive mindset and a joyful heart.
      With smiles, Pat.

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  6. Hey, Pat.

    It's nice to finally get here and understand your connection to the hop. (Must confess I was a little confused as to how you found out about it, but very glad you did.) I enjoyed the way you wrote this post, but will have to read around for the context.

    Take care, my friend.

    Casey

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    1. Cheers, Casey, for your response to me post. I have known Nicole for some time now and, through her, I have met Corine. As a result of Nicole mentioning that she had joined this blog tag and must get down to writing her entry because time was short ... my ears perked up; I work best under pressure and enjoy turning my mental tap on. She hadn't mentioned the group before and I loved the idea, so I hastily wrote and asked whether I could possibly join. I must have said something right because I was accepted, much to my delight.

      As to the context ... don't worry about it ... just accept that I was a teenager in Liverpool in the mid sixties and considered myself rather fetching ... I wouldn't set foot outside the door until I was perfectly dressed and made-up.
      With chuckles, Pat.

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  7. Beautiful Pat! I love how this is the last post that links to the first. A perfect ending to take us back to the perfect beginning.

    Isn't it funny that as we grow we realize that we are exactly on the path we should be on and all of those experiences make us who we are today so, changing them would mean changing ourselves and if we've learned to love who we've become, well, then that's that ;-).

    oxoxox

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    1. Greetings, Sili ...
      Yes ... there lies the nub of the secret of living a happy life ... the Earth-shattering change in perspective to be found when one finally realises the secret of self-acceptance. The second enormous step comes with self-love. Neither of these 'pills' is easy to swallow, alas ... but the freedom to be found when one has finally done so is wonderful.
      With respect, Pat

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  8. Ohhhhhhhh I love your words.. so raw and honest...and that you can see the positive through the dark..something I have yet to learn.. Thank you for sharing YOU with us....As always...XOXOXOXO

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    1. If I can cast light into the darkness, Bongo, then I am happy. The biggest change of my life came when I was fifty-one and I stood still for a year. My mother-in-law was dementing and needed twenty-four-hour care. Ken and I worked three-day shifts, caring for her in her own home ... this meant that we were effectively alone for that time, which gave me much time for introspection. The result was that I emerged from this a much happier person.
      Thank you for your enthusiastic response. Pat.

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  9. What a journey and still going strong!

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    1. Yes, Rimly, I most certainly am still going strong ... but nowadays in a much better frame of mind. Happiness is the secret and now I have found it, I do not allow negative impulses to enter my awareness.
      With thanks for your comment. Pat.

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  10. Such an honest, forthright description of your past, Patricia. For most of us, it's difficult to learn from our mistakes and still maintain hope and faith for the future. It seems like you have done precisely that!
    Great post!
    Blessings!

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    1. Hello, Martha,
      Your comment is most welcome ... and, yes, the mind-shift was a difficult transition ... but the resulting joy in life is still wonderfully refreshing, even after eleven years' experience, LOL.
      With best wishes, Pat.

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  11. Loved this...great idea to make it in the form of a poem.

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    1. Jessica, I have churned out the doggerel since small childhood ... can't see me changing my style in my sixties, smile.
      Thanking you for responding to my post. Pat.

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  12. Patricia, I'm so happy that you were able to get in on this hop. I wouldn't have wanted to miss this post. Your words carried me through your life of sorrow and happiness at the same time. How your experiences have shaped the life you now live; how you have come out on top, despite the misery you experienced at the hand of others. You cannot go back and change the choices you made, and even though you realize that they may have not been the greatest choices, they were a learning experience and you walked away being wiser. Thank you for sharing this beautiful post ♥♥♥

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    1. Hello, Mary ... I was talking to someone yesterday morning, saying to her that I have woken up and viewed the world with love every morning for the last eleven years (perhaps I should write about waking up of a morning with a face as dark as thunder, LOL). Then I stopped, after the brief chat, and looked back ... eleven years loving the world and seeing beauty even among the rubbish ... I am indeed so very fortunate.
      My thanks to you, Mary, for your welcome response.
      With respect, Pat.

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  13. Patricia - Like Mary, I'm so glad you joined the hop. Your writing is delightful and wise. Thank you for sharing your life and wisdom with us. You have indeed had a full life and your love is truly bubbling over. Thanks for sharing it with so many. ♥♥♥

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    1. Corinne, my thanks go to you for enabling me to join ... for going to the admins and asking them for me at such short notice ... I love set targets and enjoy writing my doggerel, and as for airing my 'dirty washing' for the whole world to see, dear, I have absolutely no shame whatsoever. :D
      With many thanks, Corinne ... namaste.
      Pat.

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  14. You seemed to have lived your live well...such a positive post. We can't live life backwards and yes, that's all the sum total of us. Well said.

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    1. Many thanks, Janu, for your most welcome response to my post. I was lucky enough to have been gifted with skills which enabled us all to be well housed, dressed and fed, Janu ... my sewing machine enabled my several daughters to be fashionable teenagers; I could make a nourishing meal from very little variety of supplies with the aid of my herb gardens and I could earn extra income from making and selling toys. I married men who loved me and with each I gained more children to tell stories to ... I have lived a productive life.
      With respect, Pat.

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  15. WOW... wow! I agree with Corinne, your writing is delightful and wise! Thank you for opening up and sharing such strength and hope!

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    1. And thank YOU, Amy, for your generous response. Sometimes I find myself wishing I had been as wise through the first fifty years of my life ... but, as I said in my wee story above, I wouldn't have grown up in my early fifties to become the me that I am now in my sixties, LOL.
      With best wishes, Pat.

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  16. Wonderful post and poems are my favourite. Mini skirts and The Beatles - oh lol I remember those days with laughter and love.

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  17. Oh finally...finally, I've arrived :* I read your comment over at my post. Thank you for visiting me there.

    I was careful not to simplify your wishes. You lived in an era and in a place where I wish to be. How fortunate you are. I also like the caricatures you've made.

    I hold your experiences in my heart... you have become the person you are now because of them.

    Lots of love!

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